Poetry

Strange thoughts

The feeling hits so intense

Not knowing what is real and what is imagined

Outward crushing pain

Mental anguish fighting back from inside again

Feeling I have lost my mind

Still searching for what is real

Am I really sitting here peacefully?

Or is the world falling in all around me

Using the restroom completely alone

Am I really here or doing the unthinkable with everyone around

At times I swear I see a shadow by

Is this just another trick of my eye?

I hear sounds and swear someone calls my name

Is it just a memory catching up to me?

Do I really hear someone calling out for me?

To see things so beyond what is normal

Hard to believe the simpler things in life

When you know you have someone to back you up

Even then it’s hard to believe

You rationalize why it’s there

Then you try to remain clear of there

So much in life to see

So much no one else would believe

Since I am open to the unusual and unexplained

I still wonder when it is my mind that plays with me

When do I know when it’s no longer real?

When something really is wrong with my mind

Christmas

Christmas is such a wonderful time

A time to be affected by such beautiful lights

How can you walk by and not notice

Such a bright glowing Santa waving you by

To see it through the eyes of a child

Excitement and wonder all so brand new

The light of imagination light up inside

So many colorful lights and tinsel

Lights, holly family pictures decorating the wall

Nutmeg in the holiday pie

Friends and family always coming by

Christmas tree almost touching the ceiling

Ribbons and bows and ornaments too

Wrapped around the tree in a monumental glow

An angel or star on top of the tree so grand

As I look up at the angel she is looking smiling down at me

Christmas wreathes on the door warm and inviting

Snow blankets the green yard outside

Feeling of living in a traditional wonderland

Snow globes and sleigh bells

Best of all this year I have you

There are those who are no longer near

Each candle lit for those who are no longer here

Homeless

The winter nights get so cold

Winter roar chills deep to the bone

Wet snow soaking my feet

The cold leaving frost bite on my face

I hurry and run along

Not that I really have anywhere to go

Just to try to get out of the cold

For so many hours spent under the night sky

My old dingy jacket cannot hold out the cold

Leaning against the stone cold wall

Catching my breath hoping the wall will hold me

Stores closed now and not a single light in sight

Being able to see only because of the moonlight

No one else walking around this late at night

Other then these who are frozen like me

A shiver I cannot seem to control

Trying to block some of the wind

Picking up gum off the street

Desperate to eat anything given to me

To keep the water from flooding my shoe

The whole in the heal conveniently released it for me

I used to have a home and so much more

Change of a job, trust in someone else, simple fire or flood

As quick as a blink of an eye you get thrust into the unknown

I truly pray this hopefully does not happen to you

To be lost and alone in the cold with no one or where to turn

So lost and beyond simple care

Not knowing where to go or get help from here